We Are Under ALLAH'S Supervision.

Malaysian are being tested by Allah The Most Merciful. We are overwhelmed with the tragic moments of the lost of MH17 continuity from the previous lost of MH370. Surely, it was hard for Malaysian to accept the fate destined. What the worst is that when I found out that our aircraft MH17 was shot down by inhumanity parties that yet couldn't be verified. ( Chronologically, MH17 was on its way from Amsterdam, Netherlands to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia with 283 passengers and and 15 crews totaled 298 person on 17th of July 2014 and was shot down by a missile BUT SA -11in eastern Ukraine "Donetsk territory" and near Russia border. The question now is who is the perpetrator of the tragedy. The world knows that there are three main actors of the tragic air incident; Ukraine, the separatist of Donetsk and Russia. Ukraine claimed that Russia supplied weapons to the Republic of Donetsk (separatist) before the incident. However, Russia denied that the main actor who shot down MH17 was Ukraine, the blaming come with tough evident through their satellite data that Ukraine firefighter was around the MH17 before incident. Meaning, they between Russia and Ukraine keep blaming each others. What made me stressed out when The White House come forward to blame Russia for the main actor of the tragedy because Vladimir Putin was blamed to supply weapon to The Separatist. I don't know what point when Mr President come out with the statement and it was not yet verified. Then, my mind goes to the World War of Ideologies between Capitalism and Socialism / Communism. There were from The United States versus Russia from along time ago. Let we see the role that The United States took to solve the problem about MH17 even though, the mechanism they took more to their political agenda when Mr President lobbied many international TopGun leaders to press Russia. The efforts took by The White House was not recognised sincerely from Malaysian. Fortunately, our leader played very good role to make sure that the process of investigation goes well without any disturbance from any interest parties. Our Prime Minister through diplomacy has agreed with the leader of The Republic of Donetsk to smoothern the process. We want to make sure that only the real perpetrator be brought to justice. The other TopGun leaders failed to play their role to make sure that the security of the investigators are safe but Malaysia succeeded. We know that the world don't recognise the penubuhan of the Republic of Donetsk because the territory is under Ukraine sovereignty. Thus, Malaysia stand for 3 things from the incident. 1) to claim the bodies; 2) to claim the black box from the leader of Donetsk (succeeded on 22nd of July 2014) and ; to go in the incident place to carry out investigation by taking any sort of evidents from the debris (security guaranteed by the Donetsk territory). My humble thought that the incident was hard to be solved because of the geopolitics among actors I mentioned above.). The following is the the chronology taken from thestar.com.my for our deeper study on the tragedy:

The plane, MH17 was flying from Amsterdam to Kuala Lumpur.
Thursday, July 17

6.00pm: scheduled time of departure of Malaysia Airlines (MAS) flight MH17, a Boeing 777 from Amsterdam's Schiphol Airport.

6.15pm: MH17 departs from Amsterdam carrying 283 passengers and 15 crew members.

10.15pm: MAS  confirms it received notification from Ukrainian Air Traffic Control (ATC) that it had lost contact with MH17 at 30km Tamak waypoint, appropriately 50km from Russia -Ukraine border.

11.30pm: MH17 presumably crashes. MAS releases official tweet "Malaysia Airlines has lost contact of MH17 from Amsterdam".

11.40pm: Moscow based news agency Interfax says Malaysian passengers Airlines was shot down at altitude of 10 km above Eastern Ukraine.
= They confirmed the location of a burning Malaysia plane in Eastern Ukraine
= The Ukraine Interior Ministry also confirmed that all passengers and crew are dead. The aircraft was shot down while cruising at an altitude of 30,000ft
= Igor Strelkov, the military commander of pro Russia separatist ,posted on media social shortly before MH17's crash that rebel forces had brought down an Antonov An-26, an aircraft commonly used by Ukraine forces, in the same area.

Now the process of investigation is still running to make sure that only perpetrator be brought to justice.

Only Allah knows how deep the sadness must be undergone by families and members of the victims on the board. I cannot imagine how am I going to face all that such tragic and heartbreaking news if one of the victim on the board is my relative. O Allah, it was too hard for us to accept it.

However, we as Muslims must accept the tragedy with no question why Allah take the MH17 as the thing to destroy after what has happened to MH370 ? Logically, it was totally unfair and those who see from this point of view would be no more Muslim. O Allah, avoid me from that such thoughts.

When Allah tests His slave, it symbolises that Allah loves us. Moreover, that is the way Allah see us with love. We should worry if Allah bestowed us longevity and prosperity with no ending. We are actually out of Allah supervision. O Allah, I do hope You keep on seeing me and bless my life so that I live with reason to obey Your orders. That should be instilled deep into our hearts. Allah wills!

On the way to end up this blessing month and now we are at the last ten days to complete Ramadhan 1435 H before celebrate Eid. Are we affected with the last days of Ramadhan that Allah had promised us there is a night called Lailatul Qadar. And the night is better that a thousand nights. MasyaAllah. We faced challenges from many corners, from the lost of live when MH17 & MH370 found out that the victims were no longer alive. Again, we saw that our sisters and brothers are being slaughtered by the Jews in Gaza, Palestine. They are bombed with no humanity and with no sympathy. They ran to save their live but there is no more sail to go. They are surrounded with bullets from the Jews. O Allah, how are they going to escape themselves from harm.

We also saw Syrian who are Sunnah Wal Jamaah are being chased by Syiah who claimed they are Muaslims. The Sunnah are not in safe place anymore, they are attacked by Syiah until most of them lost their live. Allah the Most Greatest! Moreover their women are raped and killed like they have no dignity. This the tragic actions upon Muslims in all around the world. Are we willing to just see and nod our head as disagree? Is it enaugh just to do it?

We Muslims are at the weakest stage who love the world very much and afraid to dead. We love more on our money and we put the other person's matters as non of our business. Are we willing to just see the people we say Ummah under the name Islam are being killed unsinned. If we will, get ready to answer in front of Allah at the day of Resurrection.

Islam taught us when we see wrongdoings; we must stop with hands if we have power, if incapable stop it with voice if we have gut and the last, if we still incapable set deep in ourselves to not do it. Surely, the last action showed our weakest Iman we have. I myself seem not able at all to go to Gaza, Syria and anywhere to protect Islam and Muslims from dangers. O Allah, it is so hard. The only thing I can do is to pray do'a and my thought is always with them. At least, we have spirit to help our sisters and brothers whom in dangers.

I do respect Briged Al-Qassam who is the back bone of Palestinian. They are the world hero and the supreme entity for Palestinian. They have sophisticated assets that capable to defeat Israeli to launch attack over Israel. Recently, we heard that the Briged is capable to launch attack until the northern Israel. Meaning to says, they have sophisticated weapons and I'm sure this would be a warning if Israeli keep attacking Gaza. With the J80 missile owned by Al Qassam, they caplable to launch attack cross Tel Aviv and couldn't be blocked by Israeli drone. A nasheed group Hijjazz in Malaysia created a jihad song specially to the hero of Palestinian entitled "Perjuangan Al-Qassam". I respect to this local musician to spark off a spirit of Jihad among Muslim. This should be thump up! The lyrics of the the song is the following:

Al-Qassam Warriors (Pejuang Al-Qassam) 

Wahai pejuang al-qassam penjaga Palestin,
Jadi tunggak ibu pertiwi didikan Syeikh Yassin,
Al-Quran jadi senjata menyahut seruan Briged Izzudin,
Ayuh maralah ke hadapan bersama Muhammad Dhaif,
Dikenali tentera dunia bentuk jalan mulia,
Mengajar erti perjuangan rela syahid itu matlamat,
Tidak mempedulikan musuh tidak mengkhianati,
Wahai yang bermaruah tinggi panglima kedua,
Mengisi kehidupan syuhada' pencinta perjuangan,
Bangunlah pemuda pertahankan negara tercinta,
Wahai pejuang bertopeng gentarkan Yahudi,
Abu Ubaidiah yang perkasa musuh digeruni,
Teriakan yang kedengaran tentera Muhammad kembali,
Didikan Syeikh Yassin.

I'm about confident that if this prolong, the Briged keep pushing Israeli by non-stop attacks and killed Israel soldiers. They, (Israeli) must listern what United Nation and Arab Leage want to have ceasefire among Tel Aviv and Gaza. The Israeli were born cowardly and of course, they don't want to see many Israeli bodies killed by the hands of Palestinian. I think Israel has no choice unless to stop attack Gaza.

People in Gaza are lucky to have Briged Al-Qassam but I'm very disappointed with Egypt and Arab League. They play no role to help Palestine instead of keep following what United States and Israel ask them to do. They are real coward entity who claim they are Arabian but live separatedly with other groups who also from Arabian. They are Assabiah, that's why they are having a very hard way for united among themselves.

If we have mind, we can differentiate what is the diamond and what is just the glass. President of The United States Barack Obama supports what Israel is doing now to Gaza. He said there is the way Israeli protect themselves from Palestine's attacks. The evident was that when the sirens in Tel Aviv keep ringing all the time. I want to ask to Barack, how many Israeli died compared with Palestinian? Only fewer from Israel but the most are from Gaza. Only the stupid would answer otherwise. We know that every talks given by Mr President was arranged by Israeli. In The United States itself, there are many what we call "hidden hands". They control and arrange everything but exposed or outspoken by Mr President. This due to economy conquering by the race named The Jews Laknatullah. Sometimes, I think it was good if Adolf Hitler, a Germany leader who was Nazy  commited genocide all over the Israeli. This is because they have no any sense of humanity upon people in Gaza, they are willingly to launch attack onto hospitals and mosques. The War International Prosedures have guided that no women, no childrens, no hospitals or even no religious places are allowed to be aimed to launch attack. What crazy Israeli is doing now? They are very cruel, they are the real rebels!! When we read Al-Quran the contents storied us before the end of the day of Recompense, Muslim win over the Jews Laknatullah. I think the time as storied in the Holy Quran is almost arrive.

The world is getting older and will end up with disaster. That is the truth when we refer to The Holy Quran, there are many sentences storied about doomsday. Many Muslim put the Holy Quran beside and to underatand the contents is not happen at all. I myself is among themselves who refer no to the Holy Quran. The intention to understand the meaning of the contents started when I was in primary school and it was brought to university and ultimately I understand nothing except day dream. And now when I am 25 years old I started to recover what I've left behind about understanding the Holy Book granted to the Prophet Muhammad in the blessing month of Ramadhan Kareem. I was shocked when I read the Quran (tadarus) with my colleagues chapter two surah Al Imran, Yes, I noticed that we are doing it, we take only half but we leave the rest. Meaning to says, we have jumped into the status kafir or non Muslim. But, in positive side, we are civilians or citizen of a Malaysia leader. The leader should understand what are right and what are wrong that everyone should take. Are we considered real Muslim because we fast in Ramdhan but we don't perform solah. The same issues goes to Islamic Rule / Regulation. We claimed that Malaysia is the Muslim country but in part of implementing the Islamic Rule, we disobeyed. We refer more to Western Rule or Westminster on the reason we are the colonial of United Kingdom. O Allah, You are The Most Forgiver and love to forgive your slave. Thus, forgive me O Allah. I realised that The Holy Quran has given us complete regulation as a guideline from to go astray. But in fact, we denied it because we expect we are intelligent in guiding people with the Rule / Regulation that human made. How snobbish are we in term of unrealized that their bodies also were made by The Most Powerful Creator.

Before we demand to disobey Allah, ask ourselves several questions; Do we live on our willingness? Are we able to confirm that tomorrow we are still alive? If you ask yourself that two questions, the answers are from Allah. We have nothing! Then, we are taught to remember five things before five things. 

1) Remember live before death;
2) Remember when we are healthy before we get pain;
3) Remember when we are young before old;
4) Remember of leasure / free times before time come to busy and;
5) Remember the time we rich before we poor.

What the most important thing we should take is that; return to Allah's orders by obeying 100%. And again, we should obey all out what Allah asks us to do. We should not just take only half of the orders and the rest we put aside. Surely, we are in disaster. When Allah angers onto a person or a party, Allah will bring down disasters onto the whole who are around the place. Meaning to says, there may be some pious parties, some unsinned parties and some sinned parties. All are included into one disaster. So, we have to play our role to make sure our community is on the right path only worshiping Allah.

New Exposures at New Place

1st of July 2014, I was enrolled to Taska under Ministry of Women, Family and Community Development in Putrajaya. I didn't know what reasons I was there and I just obeyed what my parent did. I remembered the early morning on that day, "Abah" brought me to somewhere that I myself didn't know at all. As any other days before, I was the one who wish to follow "abah" to go anywhere even though I knew my intention would have rejected! That's what I always experienced. But it didn't matter because a child like me would never know anything except one word described happiness.

I was brought by "abah" to a place named Taska. Firstly, I was a bit confused why I've been left alone there with no "abah" and "ibu". I was surrounded by strangers and they were not similar as I always see. Truly, I felt I have nothing. I just knew that only crying would end up all these problems. First of all, I followed what the strangers did and I tried to strengthen myself that everything gonna be alright. But, I failed to control myself and I started to cry again and again uncontinuously. Fortunately, I realized that crying was not the effective solution to overcome my feeling on that time.

On that morning, I was exposed with new friends and new environment. I was quite happy. I was surrounded by a crowd who I assumed strangers. Then, I played together and had fun even though I was stressed and confused. This question came out of my mind: why I've been left there with no supervision from my biological parent? I followed the strangers' orders to play, to eat, to drink and to read books and so on. The flow ran smoothly. I noticed that there was a system to ensure everyone knows what to do next. Meaning to says, we have programmes called syllabus at all time.

The sad story began at noon when I was asked to sleep on the bed. The bed was quite nice and flexible in term of soft swing. I objected the order because I usually active at noon. My adrenaline was at high level at noon. (I'm talking about "if"); if I was at home I usually cleaned house even though"lbu" always scolded me. My intention was good to give my hands in order to lighten "ibu's" burden to clean house. I took plates, pots, saucepans, spoons and anything achieved by hands. Then all those things I sorted one by one on the floor. In my eyes, they looked nice but I didn't know how it looked in my "ibu's" eyes. She kept bubbling saying the house was messy because of my hands. He3.. I nodded as agree that the house was messy but slowly I started to mess it again and again every day. Poor my "ibu". Hu3. Back to the story at the Taska, I could say I was forced by the stranger to sleep. In my mind, how am I going to sleep? I couldn't sleep at the crucial time when my adrenaline is at peaks!!. You the strangers must understand me and listen my heart's voice. They refused to do so instead of forcing me. What could I do in term of physical size, surely they won! I am small and they are big and looked the biggest creature in my eyes. Ok, I made up a decision that the best way was I pretend to sleep. I slept with the both of my eyes opened! How could you imagine? Did I sleep? Of course, I didn't.. The strangers pampered me to make sure both of my eyes closed. My stand was that; I couldn't!!

Fortunately, I heard my "abah's" voices slowly entered into my hole's ears. I started to grin broadly and of course smiled happily. I woke up fastly to get "abah" and I want to tell "abah" how I was treated here? I want to make sure "abah" take me out of the place fulled with strangers. How relief was I that time. I felt confident with the environment because I was not all alone. Suddenly, my "abah" disappeared from my eyes. I didn't know how to describe my feeling on that time. Only crying would have accompanied me that hours. I searched all corners to get "abah" but I found nothing. A stranger brought me around the place to coolen down my sadness of the disappearing "abah". I thought only "abah" and the other things were not around in my mind.

I want everyone imagine how was I along the period from 8.00am until 5.00pm with the strangers. And for the first time! Around 3.00 o'clock I was stable in term of "feeling". The time ran quite fast that day, the wall clock showed 5.00pm. I saw my "abah" come closer to me and asking; are you ok laling? I ran around the place as to inform I was ok and stable.

When we were home, my mind overwhelmed with a feeling of uncertainty. I  remembered what I did at Taska and the people around there. All those things haunted me at the first week. I remembered on the second day I was in Taska. When we were home, the night made me uncomfortable. I asked "abah" to go out to have fresh air outside. I forced "abah" to follow my wants to climb stairs until the fifth floor then go down to downstairs then had sightseeing at garden behind our apartment. Owh, I didn't know why it happened because my heart's voice want to be free out of the box (apartment). Fortunately, my wants listened! My sleeping also was affected with the sounds of children runing here and there overwhelming me. I think it was normal for the first week and I do hope all those feeling disappear as soon as possible.

What made me confused was that along the first week, I couldn't adopt or assimilate myself into the community of children in the Taska. But, when I was at home my mind had been thinking about Taska for one week before I entered into the second week. The second week made me more pleasure and cool because I have entered into a life surrounded with crowd. That's my story as a child to elders!

The next days at the place have changed my expectations from the first point of views on the 1st of July 2014. Now, I am new laling and I'm happy to wake up earlier every morning just to make sure I have times with them as my new friends and new exposures!

Best Regards,
Laling